Gingham + Sneakers

Weird to say perhaps but this is my new favorite combo. It feels like summer here in Colorado so I am loving breaking out my dresses! I think pairing them with sneakers instead of flats or sandals gives them a more dare I say edgy look? I just received this pair from Cougar Shoes and I am so into them. They are light as a feather and are the perfect nudey brown that goes with everything!

I also just purchased this dress from The Haley Boutique in Tulsa. This past weekend was my 6th time going and I finally made it to the cute shops there with Jon's mom. We had so much fun and I found this gem. They sell some clothing online here and I can't wait to go back to buy more! (not sponsored just really into this dress)

Shoes c/o Cougar Shoes // Dress The Haley Boutique // Shirt Pacsun similar here // Hat F21



Insta Lately

Hello my blog friends I have missed you! I have been crazy busy with school and haven't had time to sit and write a proper post the last two weeks (I like to schedule posts and you have been reading those!) While I haven't been shooting for the blog a lot I have been doing tons of instagramming so I want to catch you up on where you can find the information I am talking about and what I am wearing! Follow me here (@emmawlker) to stay up to date on alllll the fun.

I will talk to you guys next week after I come back from Tulsa and MEETING Thomas Rhett! SO EXCITED

SO excited that Denver has a new music festival! You can find more information on Grandoozy here! Also this is one of my favorite dresses - it comes in four colors and is seriously affordable.

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My friend Sam (@Samtrab) came to visit me this past week and we had so much fun! I took here to all my favorites spots including Vail, Union Station and Red Rocks. This sweater is one of my favorites and actually hot pink from H&M but is sold out so I link my other favorites below!

Walking around Red Rocks during the day was actually something I had never done. I normally go for concerts (and if I am being honest these stairs after a few drinks are WAY easier than sober... ) I love this jacket wear it almost everyday (as I type this it is hanging on the back of my chair) Jon got me it from a vintage store for Valentine's Day so it is extra special to me! I found some similar styles below. You can shop my favorite workout shoes here

Last but not least did you know that Kroger (King Soopers by me) offers delivery?! It is life changing to get groceries delivered. You can find more info on it here


Goodbye Winter

I won't miss you... thankfully I have these photos to always remember you. Until next year.

(this is me hoping we are DONE with snow here Colorado)

thank you David + Drew Photography for these!


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I Still Struggle

I have been tying to put into words for so long how to explain what I mean when I say that I still struggle. I don't want to keep complaining but I also don't want to stop sharing my story. In my life there has been an expectation set for me and then upheld by myself that if you are good one day you should be good there next day. This creates a rigid structure set up to make me feel like a failure because some days I just struggle.

This past weekend I had a horrible time. Everything I did gave me no relief from living in my anxiety and trauma brain. With this comes physical symptoms and lately they have manifested as seriously uncomfortable chest pain. I don't know if you have ever had chest pain but I don't recommend it. It is scary and very uncomfortable. It is almost like my anxiety said hey - F you we are going to scare you real bad today so you pay attention to us.

My anxiety is needy little monster. It wants to run my life and is used to doing so as I gave it all my power the past year. By this I don't mean that I ever just let it tear me down. NO no noooo. I fought my ass off to tell it to be quite and go away but it is kind of like being an internet hater. The more you pay attention to something even if you hate it - is just giving it attention. To my anxiety no press is bad press.

So what has life been like for me lately? Lots and lots of progress but lots of two steps forward and one step back. I currently go to therapy twice a week (I know that is crazy but man am I grateful for my therapist and the work we are doing). I do one day of EMDR to work on trauma. On the other day I do neuro feedback to train my brain what it feels like to be normal.

I am putting in the work. And I am seeing the results - sometimes. Ultimately, I still struggle. My life is not a walk in the park and some days I wish I could close my eyes the second I open them but I have this new thing called hope and I missed it for a really long time.