Your Stories #3

Not everyone's story is over in fact most of ours are works in progress - thank you to this weeks story teller for being vulnerable, honest and a beautiful work in progress!

The Rut of the “No’s”


"With every passing day, I realize how much my fears affect me. They inhibit me from living my ‘ideal’ life—how I wish I could drink a glass of wine and not fear for my life, how I wish I could trust others to not hurt me, how I wish I could have ‘normal’ thoughts. I currently believe that I am in a rut—a rut of the “no”. Due to my fear, I find myself immediately writing off new experiences because I simply force myself to believe that my fear will take over and therefore I should not participate. I understand that my anxieties can give me the upper hand, but most of the time, I feel like the weirdo. I can’t go out with a group of people in a foreign place because I am so afraid of them abandoning me. As of now, I have completely given up on the idea of this. I keep telling myself that I am a social person, but my actions do not seem to reflect on that. I have always felt like I never fit in for so many reasons. For one, I always felt growing up in the U.S. has made me a mixed breed. I hate feeling like I don’t belong in either of my homes. I am my toughest critic that has always been my biggest commitment. I hate that my fears control my life because that is not the way it should be. I am ‘supposed’ to be having “the time of my time!!!!”. “The time of your life” isn’t real. Every day should be “the time of your life”. Sometimes you’re not going to have the greatest day ever because people can be shitty, you can wake up already dreading the day, or every little thing can drive you mental. For the past week, I have found myself in this place where I feel as if I have no direction. I crave direction. I need it for my survival. Yet—I don’t have any. I am a dreamer and I have always been. I think about what I presume to be the “perfect” situation in my head and automatically disappoint myself when my expectations are not met. This is why I say “no”—because I presume to already know the facts. In reality, I have been letting my fears get the best of me. I know that I am a smart person. I fear for others because I know how badly they can hurt me. I want to start saying ‘yes’ and stop making excuses for myself. I want to feel strong enough to step out of my comfort zone. Of course I’ll never truly be ready to step out of my bubble, but if I don’t try then what will I gain from this experience? Debt? No thank you. Regardless of the affirmation that the people closest to me give me, I must do something to get out of this rut. I have to be more open minded. I have to remind myself that I will be fine. I want to grow—I need to grow. One of these days, it’ll be me out on the terrace laughing my head off with people that I barely know, having the “time of my life”. Until then, I’ll continue to feel sorry for myself at 1:15 a.m."


Insta Lately

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Loafers, bangs and lots of coffee! Shop all my favorite looks from my instagram that I have been posting lately - @emmawlker. I just had the craziest weekend ever - birthday dinner (happy birthday to my Mom and Sister this week!) a photoshoot in the mountains (with Jon!) a huge snowstorm then ANOTHER road trip and finally some homework to round out my Sunday haha. As I type this I am 100% procrastinating but it benefits someone right?! Happy Monday! XO

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Shop my top here and leggings here

Shop my jeans here (on sale), shoes here, phone case here and top here

Shop this fun top that says "girl power" here

Shop my shoes here, sweater here, jeans here (on sale) and bag here

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Shop my top here (sooo cozy) and shorts here


Something Navy X Treasure & Bond Collection

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I have loved following Arielle from Something Navy so naturally I was so excited when she launched a collection with Nordstrom. I found two pieces that I really love - 1) these shoes that are still on the site ON SALE! I love the white it is perfect year round (I promise forget that one rule) 2) this off the shoulder sweater which is unfortunately sold out but finger's crossed it comes back!

Side note: ignore my hair... under doctor's orders for my back I am restricted to three showers this week (I wish I was kidding you guys) and this is what I am working with. Hope you all are having a good week! 

Sweater here but similar here // shoes here on sale! // jeans Flying Monkey // Bag here

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Finally my most requested video... an apartment tour! PLEASE know that this is not bragging but rather sharing how I decided to decorate and where I found my items (mostly for a good price at Target or Amazon!!) Let me know what else you want to see from me!