Hello my beautiful and wonderful blog readers! I am so sorry I have been MIA and am not even going to offer you an excuse - life just happened. As I write this I am sitting at my favorite coffee shop and fighting mad jet lag from our trip to Switzerland (not complaining though gimme that jet lag every week for a trip like that!). I have four days until I need to pack my bags again for Mexico and our “engagement-moon” or practice honey moon as I like to call it (totally making that a thing). I am so excited but wow life is starting to slow down and speed up simultaneously.
If you have been following me the past few months you may be annoyed at how much I discuss my upcoming move, but I do have some new followers and I do want to talk about it again - so bear (bare?) with me people! Tomorrow Jon is moving into my apartment making tonight my last single girl living in my own apartment night forever. Guys I just got CHILLS. That is crazy to me. I am so glad that I have lived alone the past two years and lived out of my house in an apartment for the past three. I feel like I am ready to move (literally) into this next challenge but I don’t think I will ever shake the feeling that this is surreal.
When we get back from Mexico I have such a short time with my friends and family left before we move to Tulsa for the foreseeable future. Very crazy. I don’t know if I just don't pay attention, but I don’t know many people who move somewhere for good - like unless something crazy happens and I mean never say never but Tulsa is my new home and the home of our family and our future family. I wouldn’t have it any other way, but that doesn’t mean my stomach isn’t churning with a mix of butterflies and pure nausea.
I have been hit with waves of anxiety/nostalgia that past 24 hours when I’m driving, in bed, in the middle of the night and just so randomly. Everything is starting to feel lighter and airier but not in a comforting way. I know that change is good but I also know that change is hard. The good news is this time, this change, isn’t alone. I have my two side kicks (Jon and Stella) going through the same thing and I have them at home everyday to look forward to.
I think right now I am shaken at the idea that I finally feel really confident in my mental health, very comfortable in my routine and beyond supported by the people in my life. I don’t want to give it up - mostly because the idea of having to build a new support system sounds daunting as hell. I hope it comes quick but I know that nothing will replace Rosie, Sophie, Tasha, my family and so many more. Those people are the real deal and if any of you are reading THANK YOU for helping me be a better me - I owe the past year of my favorite memories to you guys.
I guess that was a blip of random thoughts but it feels so good to be pounding it out on the keyboard, I hope to have another update in a year bragging about everything amazing that has come into my life but for now I am going to shed a tear in the bathroom of this coffee shop and then keep going. Signing off!